Let’s go! This site here will be an account of my “foolish work” – and I set it up to have a blog rather than a block. …
Today I want to become clearer why I actually pursue the “foolish work” at all.
For me this work is similar to being in touch with life itself. It’s an experiential encounter with myself and with other people through play. Through extemporatised play with what’s going on inside and outside. It helps me to understand more about the influences we share as human beings. This work teaches me who I am – which is crucial since this is the only place where I can truly make a difference. Furthermore the foolish work urges me to be in the present moment (to re – member what is present).
The present moment is the only time that is really ours, it’s in these few seconds in which life happens and is actually experienced – in the body, in the senses, in our relation to the world around us. And I love this work since making experiences, to learn and grow and apply my understanding – isn’t it why I am here for?
No, it’s about living well and not to bother too much and to best look at the nice things … and I don’t want to meet people that I don’t know plus I really don’t need to remember the present moment and such bullshit, thank you!
Well, there is the outer world and there is the inner world. And the workings of our inner world, out of which we perceive the world, seem to be a vast terra incognita. To look inside is not a proper thing to do. And it isn’t even convenient to do …
When stepping into the empty space, the “foolish work” relentlessly reveals what is present inside myself. What’s popping up is my conditioning, my self-defense, my avoidance of being vulnerable. I step into the “empty space” … but the empty space is crowded with all this, with fear of judgement, the desire to perform well, the alienation of being seen … and so on.
And the offer of this work is to release these feelings by simply feeling them and bringing them into play – this release is done for ourselves as well as for those witnessing. And this is why I value this work so much: it can give life changing experiences for all engaged, since it shows that in us “there is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so”. The Fool doesn’t think about life, the Fool is experiencing life. The Fool suffers from restrictions as much as she is free of them. The Fool doesn’t cling to one side as he isn’t stuck in any narrative. The Fool is essentially nothing but flowing life force, experiencing whatever comes along with curiosity.
Ahh, no thanks, I don’t want to feel neither my conditioning nor my defenses and furthermore I am not a performer at all. And I think self-defense is healthy, why should I turn into a naïve child again and run around being curious? Apart from that I am certainly right to have bad feelings about what’s going on these days, regardless of any thinking. No, no, I can happily live without this “foolish work”. And the last thing I want, really, is to be witnessed by stumbling about and showing myself. I definitely know other things that are more fun to do!
Well, we are performing anyway. And in this work, we can feel us directly.
And especially to bounce against my shortcomings, out of all other aspects, makes me conscious of how they make me I treat myself and the world around me. And becoming more conscious about this I can use my free will far more intentional for what I actually want to perform – on whatever stage.
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Last Updated: 21. December 2020 by Anne
0. MY FOOLISH QUEST
Let’s go! This site here will be an account of my “foolish work” – and I set it up to have a blog rather than a block. …
Today I want to become clearer why I actually pursue the “foolish work” at all.
For me this work is similar to being in touch with life itself. It’s an experiential encounter with myself and with other people through play. Through extemporatised play with what’s going on inside and outside. It helps me to understand more about the influences we share as human beings. This work teaches me who I am – which is crucial since this is the only place where I can truly make a difference. Furthermore the foolish work urges me to be in the present moment (to re – member what is present).
The present moment is the only time that is really ours, it’s in these few seconds in which life happens and is actually experienced – in the body, in the senses, in our relation to the world around us. And I love this work since making experiences, to learn and grow and apply my understanding – isn’t it why I am here for?
No, it’s about living well and not to bother too much and to best look at the nice things … and I don’t want to meet people that I don’t know plus I really don’t need to remember the present moment and such bullshit, thank you!
Well, there is the outer world and there is the inner world. And the workings of our inner world, out of which we perceive the world, seem to be a vast terra incognita. To look inside is not a proper thing to do. And it isn’t even convenient to do …
When stepping into the empty space, the “foolish work” relentlessly reveals what is present inside myself. What’s popping up is my conditioning, my self-defense, my avoidance of being vulnerable. I step into the “empty space” … but the empty space is crowded with all this, with fear of judgement, the desire to perform well, the alienation of being seen … and so on.
And the offer of this work is to release these feelings by simply feeling them and bringing them into play – this release is done for ourselves as well as for those witnessing. And this is why I value this work so much: it can give life changing experiences for all engaged, since it shows that in us “there is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so”. The Fool doesn’t think about life, the Fool is experiencing life. The Fool suffers from restrictions as much as she is free of them. The Fool doesn’t cling to one side as he isn’t stuck in any narrative. The Fool is essentially nothing but flowing life force, experiencing whatever comes along with curiosity.
Ahh, no thanks, I don’t want to feel neither my conditioning nor my defenses and furthermore I am not a performer at all. And I think self-defense is healthy, why should I turn into a naïve child again and run around being curious? Apart from that I am certainly right to have bad feelings about what’s going on these days, regardless of any thinking. No, no, I can happily live without this “foolish work”. And the last thing I want, really, is to be witnessed by stumbling about and showing myself. I definitely know other things that are more fun to do!
Well, we are performing anyway. And in this work, we can feel us directly.
And especially to bounce against my shortcomings, out of all other aspects, makes me conscious of how they make me I treat myself and the world around me. And becoming more conscious about this I can use my free will far more intentional for what I actually want to perform – on whatever stage.
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